A little bit of honesty

Lately I've been feeling kind of low, lacking that joie de vivre, so to say. Nothing in my life is particularly bad per se, but I can't seem to shake that feeling of lethargy during the day and lack of enthusiasm for practically everything. Some may say it's just a funk or a phase, but what concerns me is that it's been for a prolonged period now and I am noticing signs - signs that I had back in 2007 when I hit a really rough period in life. I was medicated then for depression and a few other issues, and stayed on my medication for about 2 years, finally weaning off it after I felt that I was getting better. Today I made an appointment with my old psychiatrist to sort out what's going on and see if she has any informative medical insight.

I know mental health is a hot button issue for a lot of people. Many don't believe in therapy or psychiatric help, or simply think it is for seriously "crazy" people. But let me tell you honestly, both therapy and medication helped me tremendously when I needed it desperately. I tend to be the type of person who holds a lot of things inside, and tries to deal with any negativity or anger in an internalized way. Going to therapy helped me learn how to open up about my problems and concerns and work through a lot of things that I had been holding on to for a long time. My family has had a long history of mental health issues, and therefore I have a genetic predisposition to certain conditions and I've seen and felt the mental and physical toll that such issues can take on an individual. That being said, I find it to be SO important to keep my mental health in check just as I would my physical health. Yes, it sucks feeling this way, but there are so many resources I have to help treat and prevent any more serious issues from arising. I don't think I should be embarrassed to admit there is something going on, and seek some kind of remedy, be it medication or otherwise. 

Hopefully this feeling will subside, and I remind myself every day that I have so many things in my life to be thankful for and so many blessings to count. As much as I would like my life to be sunshine and roses all the time, it simply isn't and no one's can be. I just need to take it one day at a time and know that this too shall pass.